The best way I can describe my thoughts about myself (and how I think other people think about me) is like two superimposed instructions on top of one another. You don't know which one to read, and it makes you confused. I don't know what I want in life and my views on things can change rapidly. I named that negative inner voice "Sarah". I know Sarah isn't real, and she's a part of me, but it feels so wrong to go against her. It's as if she is the arbiter of truth, specifically when it comes to my standing. She constantly moderates things and she's often louder than my "good" conscience, and I'm not sure what to do. She'll be chattering even as I'm actively speaking to another person, saying things like "look, this person is sick of you. Why are you such a failure?"